ARTIST STATEMENT: This is a project of a mirror stage based on Jaccques Lacan's theory. Through out my life I have an identity crisis. My confusion of my identity comes from the way I understand myself and the way I see myself. When I see myself in the mirror, I see an unknown man in it which is not my true reflection.
Drawing of my portrait as a woman, is made during Winter in Timesquare, is similar to my wish of being looked at. Each drawing session lasts 10-15 minutes which is a way to express my will and meditation of transforming from one gender to another. How do these Chinese street artists, who have the same heritage as my family, see me? Moreover, how many drawing do I need to make in order to be a completed woman?I was born and identified as a man.
In order to fill the missing parts, the generic objects are used as a metaphor of female body part since I recognized my gender. This act is absurd and hilarious with a serious issue underneath. The unconsciousness of the act has been done over and over throughout my experience including other transgendersâ€™.
The pain of coldness during the drawing session is a meditation. Moreover, it is the pain that I have to overcome and struggle of changing my gender and identity. The act of exploring my gender is expressing through my performance in public space with public perception.